The most successful part of this week was this painting. I consider it successful for several reasons. One: I am intensely uncomfortable with any sort of illustrative painting, mostly because of grade-school experiences with art teachers or peers who did not encourage me around illustration. Basically, I tend to think "I can't do it." So to experiment not with mixed-media and found art, but with directly trying to create an image, was huge for me.
Two: The direction this image went in is, obviously--strange! I first had the idea to do this while doing the pre-planning work in my journal. Something in me said, "Yeah, go with that. Try it out." And so I did.
Three: This week was just...awful in terms of creating and feeling like a decent and competent human being. I felt like a total hack the whole time. I had to keep reminding myself and reminding myself that the whole point of doing Across Mediums is to create work that is hack-ish if need be. They are not all going to be homeruns. I kept working on this piece in spite of feeling like I had no idea what I was doing. And I derive an odd satisfaction out of how it turned out. It's strange and funky and fun, clearly influenced by Maira Kalman's book, "The Principles of Uncertainty," which I am re-reading, and it just was fun to make.
3 comments:
Experimentation is both scary and fun. The color of your bird is lovely! I like it. Your doing great. I think it takes bravery to allow yourself to do "hackish" work. Bravo for being brave.
Oh, this is wonderful! Indeed the most beautiful of all...
:-)
fantastic that you are doing this! and that you are showing your process all along the way. keep going, keep going... i'm cheering for you!
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